I am not writing about this

I am not writing about this, I want to, but I feel like if I do it will just become awkward or forced or something uncomfortable will stem from it, or worst I'll look back at it and I won't feel the same way and I'll kick myself for saying it. I mean it's really too soon to say anything but I can't help but gush and get sudden flutters of happiness throughout the day. It feels different, it feels natural, which is to say it feels unforced. But I am not writing about it. I want to, and I have been talking about it, to close friends and family, and my team but only because my team sees me everyday so they know what's up. But I shouldn't write about it.

so I'll let this slip: It Feels Great!

But I'm not writing about.

N'awlins

So Blue 4's Road trip ended in New Orleans, La. 5 days and four nights in a van made Sara a rambunctious girl. My brother and Best friend welcomed me to the city of chaos with a weekend of exploring the French Quarter. I enjoy the music and style of the french quarter. I also enjoy the hospitality of New Orleans but when I lay down at night I'm willing myself to dream about sunny California. Well, I was. Now I find that I'm thinking about what's next after this year. I had considered applying to be a team leader. After a lot of thought and many frustrations, I decided that it would be best to part ways at the end of this year and start my life. Now the question is where am I going and what the heck am I going to do? I neglected to apply to grad school, and now I'm considering what I can do with a Bachelors Degree in Theatre and 10 months of experience with AmeriCorps NCCC.
Here are some things that I've decided not to do:

Burn all my money and live in a School Bus in Alaska
Go back to school to be an astrophysicist
Enlist in the Military
Try and get drafted for the WNBA (I'm too short)
Work on a farm
Try my hand at professional gambling
Work for a corporate law firm
Participate in illegal activities
Become a Police Officer
Flip Burgers


Above is a picture of NOLA architecture.

It's a astounding that after 5 years New Orleans is still rebuilding. There is a lot of work to be done.

At first I detested this city. I think it has the potential to grow on me, but I still feel my heart pitter patter for California. For now, I'm keeping my options open and trying not to become too distracted. Although, I wouldn't be surprised if I end up somewhere that I didn't expect to go after this year is over.

Onward

Journals from the Road:

It’s day one of our five-day road trip. I am in the van right now listening to The Road by Conner Oburst and the Mystic Valley Band. It is the perfect song to listen to as I stare out over the roadside scenery. It’s not even Noon and I have already seen mountains, plains and palm trees. I love this state; not only is the scenery beautiful but the people here are also genuine. Which probably sounds strange considering that Los Angeles is home to celebrities whom are typically considered to be the opposite of genuine. I have only met a few celebrities and they were basketball players, I don’t think that they count. It’s just seems as if people here are happier and friendlier. Honestly, I think the hospitality here rivals that of southern hospitality.

I’m looking forward to starting our project, I don’t really know what it will be like, I have tried to lower or eradicate my expectations. I am probably the only person who is not super stoked about going to New Orleans. I want to continue doing service projects and the 10 days of driving is taking away from my ability to do service. We will be working with KABOOM! for one of our projects and it’s probably the only part of the project that I can’t lower my expectations. I am hoping to be able to make a difference in my time there and leave a mark somewhere that isn’t on Bourbon Street. I didn’t join this program to drink and party all the time. I joined it for the service aspect. I’m not going to say that we don’t do that. It happens, when you put 18-24 year olds together, they generally find a way to have a good time. I just feel like sometimes other things, like hormones and hanging out, distract me. I am trying to refocus myself for this next project. I really want to be able to build my resume and develop skills that will help me advance my career.

Blargh… this is really boring information. At least California is beautiful.

On day two we stopped in at the worksite and visited with Alberto and Mario and the families before we left for New Mexico. It was really great to see them again and we were fortunate enough to be fed delicious Mexican food before we continued our journey east. The scenery is beautiful, but in some ways very redundant. As soon as we left California, I was ready to go back. I miss it already. I took some pictures from the road and I tried to think of things to do with my life. I’m pretty sure that the next few years are going to be inconsistent. Although knowing me my whole life will be inconsistent.

Driving/Riding in a fifteen-passenger van is hard. We’re are required to wear our seatbelts correctly which wouldn’t be a problem except that I often end up in the seat where the seatbelt is possessed and likes to get tighter and tighter as we drive. Whenever I sit in that seat I feel like I’m in a Steven King movie and can be seen struggling for the ability to breath comfortably. I am told that I shouldn’t sit in that seat, but I am often the last person in the van and sitting near the front is essential for me to combat motion sickness. Although, I haven’t experienced any since we started this ride. I don’t want to be annoying to my team by always sitting in the same seat all the time. Hopefully, I won’t bother them too much.

I’ve just arrived in New Mexico. It’s the first time I’ve ever been to this state and it looks strangely similar to Arizona. The rock formations and giant boulders are worth staying awake for. Actually, I don’t mind the similar scenery, I find it to be serene, and often feel content to drive/ride through it.

I really love the west and can see why people live here. I am actually very sad to be going back east, although, I am happy to be able to help restore such a historically rich and culturally diverse city.

Transition Week and Prep for NOLA.

This week we've had transition, it's been really great to see everyone and catch up on the work they've been doing. We head out on Monday for our five day drive to New Orleans. I am excited for the adventure, but am a little anxious about traveling by van. We will be working with the Recovery School District, which is supposed to be a creative project. We will be able to come up with ideas and if our site supervisor likes them we will be able to implement them. It will be great to see our ideas and projects through to completion or at least starting them. I still miss the Coachella Valley, and kind of wish I could have stayed. Perhaps, if I'm lucky, I'll find a job in California. I'm so exhausted and have a meeting to prepare for but I just wanted to do a quick update.



I have included the video my teammate created of our project with the CVHC.

You can thank Late Harvest Gewurztraminer for this:

Today, my mom and I drove down the coast of California, granted we didn't go as far south as I wanted but we did see some amazing sites. There are lots of really small towns in between Calistoga and Bodega Bay. The smallest we saw was a population of 48. California is a breath taking place. I am so in love with this state. I don't know how I will be able to leave this place in two weeks when my team and I travels to New Orleans. :( The good news is last that I checked our route has us heading back through Mecca. I'm very happy to know that I will be able to drive through a place so beautiful again.

I can talk about my love for Mecca for days. I'll try and restrain myself.

My mom and I did a lot of driving today. The winding roads that took us from Calistoga to Bodega were breathtaking. We stopped an awful lot and we even had cows block our path at one point.

We stopped for dinner at this place called Zazu. It was really good and all of their food was local. It was delicious.

I'm glad my friends in So Cal are safe.

Tomorrow it's back to Sacramento. Then on April 12th we leave for New Orleans.